What life is all about...

2009-08-11T17:30:00.002+08:00

The long weekend is still the same as what I had been going through during the weekdays. Staying at home and going out for just a few hours.. Except for yesterday, as I went to celebrate Xin Er's birthday at Ion Orchard befpre heading to Kallang Leisure Park for ice skating with Jun Jie and Peck Gee.. Ice skating session was quite good, as there wasn't many people like those times in Jurong, but the price is still kinda steep, and 2 hours is simply not enough. They should have those unlimited skating time and student packages like what Jurong used to have. I hope to go ice skating again before enlistment.. haha.. hope I can find some people to go with..

Ok.. I'm officially left with exactly 31 more days till enlistment... SIGH.....

2009-08-07T23:13:00.002+08:00

I was so bored, and I went to catch G.I. Joe at Tampines Mall yesterday, alone.. hahaha.. It's my second time watching a movie alone, and I think there'll be more to come, before enlistment. Lol.. because there's no one who is free to watch with me, and somemore I want to save money by pay for student price. Haha... And, the movie is seriously worth to watch! I would seriously give it 5 stars, and much much MUCH better and more worth to watch G.I. Joe than Transformers. I don't mind watching it again, if someone were to sponsor me.. HAHA!! On the side note, I seriously think Rachel Nichols is quite hot.. hahaha...

Sigh.. it's the long weekend ahead, and I seriously got no programmes, as usual... I guess I'll end up rotting at home again! I seriously hate this kind of life man! I wanna GET OUT OF THE HOUSE! Facing 4 walls and no one to talk to during the weekdays is simply driving me nuts.. Even if I go out alone, it's also boring la... sigh...

2009-08-05T23:31:00.002+08:00

Ok, this place is so dead... coz there wasn't anything interesting to update also, for my life is forever so mundane. What will you expect when I'm rotting everyday at home? Everyday is just like waiting for the next meal.. sigh...

Ok... it'll be about 1 more month to my enlistment date.. To be exact, it'll be about 1 month and 6 days? Sigh.. with so little time left, I seriously need to spend my time to the fullest man! Need to make full use of the time to do the things that I always wanted to do.. Can't work now also, since everywhere wants people who can commit for long term.. =(

Nothing else to talk alrdy... Period.

2009-07-08T15:36:00.002+08:00

Ok... I'm back to my rotting days once again. Ever since I had finished with the temporary job at Robinsons expo on Sunday, I'm back to this rotting life again. This really sucks man. When I had the momentum to work, everything came to a stop. I seriously hate this kind of lifestyle, where I could just be rotting my ass at home, with nothing to do. I wanna go out, but there is no one to go out with.

Anyway, I gave my 1st time to Cathay yesterday. Lol! What I meant is that it was my 1st time going to the movies alone. So, I went to watch Transformers, and it wasn't as good as I thought it would be. And it isn't worth to pay the weekend price to watch it, coz the storyline is not that good too. Next up, it would be Ice Age 3 and maybe Harry Potter..

2009-06-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

This place has not been updated for more than a month already. Nothing interesting to update and laziness are the reasons for not updating.

All of a sudden, looking back on my life recently, I realised that I had wasted 2 precious months of my life rotting at home and doing nothing constructive. And that it's after Week 0 till now.. oh man.. what a waste of my life. If I had started working after Week 0, I wouldn't be facing financial woes.. HAHA! It's quite difficult to find activity partners for outdoor and indoor activities too.. sigh..

I'm going to start working in Robinsons Expo sales from tomorrow, and this means that I'm gonna be kept busy for the next 2 weeks and INCOME! Haha! At least there is an income.. For anyone who is free, please feel free to head down to Singapore Expo from 25 June to 5 July for the Expo sales. Haha!

2009-05-20T00:15:00.002+08:00

Sigh... Life is so boring now, ever since Week 0 ended. Practically rotting everyday at home sia. Sigh.. When can my boring life end?

For the 1st time in my entire life, SOMEONE (2 people actually) ACTUALLY SAID THAT MY BRO & I ARE TWINS!!! This statement shocked my mum, my bro & I! LOL! Can you believe it that siblings with a 5-year gap can be mistaken as twins?! Omg man... and that person still said that I'm 16 years old..... =.= Is that a compliment or a dig? I don't wanna look so young la.. Lol.. And this actually happened when I was out with my family at Plaza Singapura.. Lol man...

Well, Nic & I went for the Robinsons interview for the Temp Sales Associate position for the Expo sales yesterday. Then, we headed to Bugis to meet Felix for jamming session.. It had been a long time since I actually played with the cards man.. lol... Somehow, it just had the weird feeling.. haha.

Graduation for Applied Science students will be on Thursday at 2pm. Oh man.. I still can't believe that I'm going to graduation after 3 years in TP. Sigh... 3 years, it isn't that long neither that short, and it certainly created much memories.. Too much to even remember.. Hmm...

Ok... I can predict that tomorrow's gonna be a rotting day again.. sigh....

2009-05-08T00:19:00.002+08:00

SIGH...... Been staying at home for the past few days with nothing to do. Especially during the weekends. I would only leave the house to go for meals or to buy meals, and after that I would be back home.. And this pattern has been going on for the past week or so. Recently, things seem to be slightly (and it's really slightly only) better as I had the chance to go out.

I really need a job, as I really need to do something till enlistment man.. and there are outputs and no income at all.. sigh.. My resources are depleting. And I wanna go overseas for a holiday. Destination is either Hong Kong, Taiwan or Australia. BUT......... This stupid swine flu is preventing me from going overseas, as my parents disallowed me to leave during this period of time. But I seriously wanna get out of Singapore before I'm trapped with the National Service for the next 2 years. Please ERADICATE the swine flu la!

2009-04-25T00:21:00.005+08:00

OMG!! I got my enlistment letter today! OMG! It was damn scary when my dad told me the date. And it was on SEPT 11!! What a date man! And majority of the people got their enlistment letter alrdy. Alden is June 11, Anil is June 12, Alfred is June 5, Nic and Randall are Sept 10, Erin is Oct 7 .. and I think most people I know get enlist early.. Sigh... I dunno whether is it a good or bad thing to be enlisted at a later date..

Anyway, I was supposed to go to the Yakult field trip today but then I couldn't go as there wasn't enough seats for student leaders. Sian.. but Nic and the rest managed to go as they went for the 1st trip. So in the end, stayed in school for the next few hours doing nothing.. until the human wheelbarrow event.

Went for dinner with 2 freshmen, and other officials for Week 0 after the wheelbarrow event. It was like the last dinner with these group of people, and this could be the last time stepping into TP or AS school, other than Graduation Day. I'm gonna miss campus life now, after orientation has officially come to an end. I'm gonna miss all those people that we went through thick and thin with, for example those in Dakota, all those old birds that we went through 3 years of orientation together, club people etc.. 3 years just passed in a flash, and NS is coming soon. I'm gonna embark on a new chapter in life for the next 2 years.. Sigh.. No more pink IC then..

Some pics taken just now:

2009-04-18T12:06:00.003+08:00

It has been a long time since I last updated, coz for the past few weeks, I had been busy with OLTC and Week 0 orientation. It had been a busy and hectic period for all of us. Week 0 officially ended yesterday, with all the tired but happy faces from all of us. I like my class, A9F2, who was super enthu and zai, but sadly, we didn't manage to win the Best Class award. =(

This is the last time I would be joining orientation, together with some of the lao jiaos. It was really sad, especially joining orientation for all 3 years. And seriously, I think I really failed badly to be a good OL this year. It was undescribable and I'm really disappointed in myself. Why did I fare this way on my last orientation? Maybe it could be due to fatigue that I was quite stone at some times, and leaving to Yolanda to carry out things, for example giving out of the matric cards yesterday. I also think that I didn't bond well with the class, or perhaps didn't bond the class well. Some of them said they enjoyed the orientation, but did everyone say that? Maybe to some, they might find it boring, and this is where I start to question myself. Why did this happen to me? Sigh... unexplainable..

I want to voice out, but I can't find the words to explain all these feelings that are trapped inside. Though I had joined 3 years of orientation, sad to say, I didn't managed to win anything for the class at all. For 2 years, which was last year and this year, I was expecting that my 2 classes were able to clinch the Best Class award, as they were all enthu and zai, but things didn't turn out as expected.

I hope to meet with the class in Week 1 to follow them to IBN for their field trip, and to keep in contact with them. I would also want to keep in contact with all those friends that I had made since OLTC, and do not wish to let these new friendships to die off after Week 0, especially when I would not be in TP anymore, so it's harder to see those familiar faces again. So people, let's try to meet when we're free ok? And relish those happy and crazy times together.. Lol! Orientation has really been a fun and happy experience, when everyone was doing stupid things, playing stupid games, dancing to Nobody etc etc... haha.. Those were the times indeed.

Can't think of what to write anymore.. especially with all the trapped feelings. Shall post pictures next time, or check it out in Facebook soon.

2009-04-03T22:05:00.005+08:00

I've just came back from the overnight simulation for Week 0 this morning. We were dismissed at 6am, when it should be at 9am, as majority of the people were already dying. And I have to admit that I was one of them. I started dying when it was about 3am, and it seriously got worse as time passed. This, I think, was myworst of all overnight programmes for the past 3 years, as I wasn't as dead as last night. I went straight home after breakfast and reached home at 8am and after bath, I just slept through the day until 5.30pm.. and I still feel tired and needs more sleep..

Anyway, yesterday was super suay la. Missed the stupid 161 and waited 20 minutes for the next one. When I reached Woodlands, I couldn't find any available cab and I was running freaking late for my driving lesson. I only managed to get a cab after walking around Woodlands central and got the cab about 20 minutes later. Damn it man! In the end I was late for my lesson for about 25 minutes. And on top of that, I realised that I had insufficient cash with me when I was in the cab, and NETS wasn't available in that cab! That seriously sucked and I told the driver and he was pissed with me. But luckily, he allowed me to withdraw at the petrol station next to BBDC, and he charged me $8 for the trip.

Oh man... LT decor not started yet, items not bought, maze not really that interesting and the props are not done too... And the thing is that we only have 1 more week to go! And I seriously think we got not enough time to finish up what needs to be done. Where's the sense of urgency people?!

Sigh... I'm not going to carry on any furthur..

Anyway, here are some pics for D&D 2009: Occupazione!

2009-03-30T23:03:00.002+08:00

Ok... It had been a long time since this place is updated, and anyway, no one would be here to read also. I'm back from OLTC which lasted from last Thursday to today. I'm generally quite satisfied with my group of people that I'm working with. I'm seriously damn tired and sun burnt from the camp, due to exposure to the sun for 2 whole mornings. For the first night, we slept at about 4.30am as we were all making our maze, and we are still not done with it yet, like the rest of the people. We slept at about 5am last night coz of the meeting we had. This OLTC was the slackest amongst all the OLTCs that we, the old birds, had gone through for the past 2 years. Perhaps due to this, the mentality of those new participants were completely different. Those were the times where we learnt through the hard way and tried to improve ourselves, and now, things are completely different. Hopefully, things will change for the better.

Week 0 is coming up in 2 weeks time, and we really need to get things done before it's too late.. LT decoration and finishing up of the maze are the main 2 things to be done ASAP. Gotta rest for tomorrow before everything continues from Wednesday..

Gotta go... I seriously need my sleep.

2009-03-02T15:54:00.002+08:00

I will be leaving Singapore for Genting Highlands in about 7 hours time, for 3D 2N. Well, it's the 1st time for me to take a night coach into Malaysia, and hope I am able to catch some sleep during the journey, as I'm a very light sleeper and unable to sleep while travelling overseas.

I wanna have more overseas trips before enlistment!! I hope that can happen..

I just can't stop sneezing and my nose is seriously running away...

2009-02-11T00:59:00.002+08:00

FINALLY IT'S OVER!!!!! I'm so glad that everything is OVER!! No more projects, no more MP, no more school.. and I will be graduating soon! Lol... It's a good thing that school work is done with, but I'm seriously missing the good old schooling days. Ever since SIP started, I missed having lessons, having tests, having mugging for exams and tests, and friends and teachers.. Hahaha! I will miss the school life, life as a student and also TP's food, even though they are not that good.. hahah.. This is really nostalgic man.

Today's presentation was really very longgggggg........ From 9am-5.30pm but we spent most of the time waiting and waiting and waiting and waiting and so on, where we only presented less than 45 minutes? Haha... And when we went to buy lunch at business today, the chicken rice stall auntie still remembered us, and asked (in mandarin) "So long didn't see u all already... Graduating already ah? 3 years really passed very fast..." That really felt nostalgic, as we ate from that stall since year 1, and we became their regular customers.. haha!

Looking back, 3 years of poly life really passed that fast. 3 years ago, we were just having orientation, and today, we would be graduating soon. I think I sort of wasted most of the 3 years, getting such lousy grades and GPA, where it can't bring me anywhere. Other aspects apply too. Sigh... it's always too late for regrets.

I'm feeling very tired to update already, and I need to compensate my sleeping time that I had lost during the past 5 months of SIP and past 2 weeks of MP chionging.. Lol!

2009-01-24T23:17:00.002+08:00

SIP IS FINALLY OVER!!! 20 weeks of this kind of tough life is finally over yesterday. Actually, there wasn't anything much to do in office except to do my reports. Sigh, they arent done yet, unlike the rest, where they had either finished their reports, or finished with the poster or both. And here I am, none of them is done. And the freaking deadline is 2 Mondays later for the MP report and the workbook. I guess I will not be able to have an enjoyable Lunar New Year also. Sianz!!! I would still be worrying over the report during the New Year too.

I guess my MP is screwed up. Only 1 out of 4 components had the results, and how am I gonna put that in the report and poster when there were no results? How am I gonna do my presentation without the results?! I'm gonna get a screwed up grade for this MP too... SIANZ!! I seriously got no mood and motivation to do this MP stuff man... coz it's really demoralising and boring.. zzz...zzzz...zzz...

2008-12-27T00:36:00.002+08:00

Wow. It had been a long, long, long time since I last updated. LOL. Look at the previous entry. It was dated in the first week of Nov! Anyway, it was either nothing to write about, or I was just plain lazy to update la.

Things had been almost the same for the past month. This year's Christmas was still the same as the past years, coz it was still a lonely Christmas, except for the company of my family.. haha.. Went for shopping with my family, and finally, I bought something. Haha.. I still have a long shopping list, but I always couldn't find something that I like.

SIP is gonna end in 26 days time, and I simply can't wait for that day to reach quickly, coz it will be CNY after that.. Haha.. However, I'm very worried about my MP's progress, as I know I can't finish it by the end of SIP. I have not start on my SIP & MP reports, and I have not done proper research on my MP yet.. But the thing is that I got no motivation to start, but I have been procrastinating for quite some time, and I'm really worried for my MP's grade. Sigh... Can someone counsel me?

Sianz.. gotta go back to TLL tomorrow morning to complete my stuff as there isn't anyone who can help me in this.. ZZZZ!! Seriously sian man, need to go back there for probably a couple of hours... Sianz la..

2008-11-02T14:06:00.005+08:00

Went to Lee Hom's Music Man concert last night with my bro, and it totally rocked the house! Or rather, the entire Indoor Stadium.. Haha! The concert was totally cool and mainly in a rock genre. And Lee Hom's at his coolest... hahaha.... And Stefanie Sun and Kit Chan were present too! The concert started at about 8.30pm and ended at about 11pm. We regretted not getting the $138 tix, as we settled for the $78 tix.. haha.. The atmosphere would be better if we joined the $138 group of people, as the people in the front were more enthusiastic. Nevertheless, we enjoyed the entire concert. New songs for the next album that would be released next month were also sung and performed.

Before the start of the concert, we wanted to get some concert merchandise from a store that was set up outside the stadium. I was tempted to get the concert T-shirt, while my bro wanted the handphone strap, but we didn't get them as the crowd at the store was "impenetratable". Lol! And we regretted not squeezing with the people to get those items.. hhaha.. Haiz.. Here are some pics taken from the concert:

This morning, our family and aunt went for the Big Walk, which was from Suntec City to Marina Barrage. It's only 5km long, as compared to previous years, which was 10km long. We went to Suntec City at 7+ am, and we ended at about 9am.. We left after walking the route and went home after breakfast. I think it wasn't as interesting as before, probably because we didn't enter the Marina Barrage to explore the place, as we were all kinda tired, especially when we had about 5 hours of sleep last night. Lol..

Haiz.. it's time to get back to work again, after having a packed weekend. My proposal isn't done yet, and I'm gonna have a hard time working on my lit review.. sigh... and the deadline's on this coming Fri, and I still got quite alot of work to do also... and I was given an extra report to do, coz he thought I had nothing to do. I was only taking a short break and although I was free for a moment, it does not mean that I will be free all the time.. ZZZZZZZ!!!!!!

2008-10-25T00:57:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time since I blogged le, as you can see when's the previous post. Been very busy to update, and all this work is seriously taking a toll on me. Working late has been a norm once again, and I don't like it la.... So sianz lor.. And not forgetting, the issue has not been solved and it had been continuing for the past few weeks. Really very sian sia.. And my project got not much progress now, and I'm scared that I can't finish my project on time as the results aren't ideal too... haiz..

The project proposal's deadline is approaching and I barely started, while others had either completed or at the midst of doing it already. I can hardly find time to do and I'm still quite lost with all the information related to my project. This weekend is already fully filled with activities, and maybe, I'm left with Monday.. Haiz... when will I have enough time to relax and let my hair down??

Stop your sarcasm and criticism and improve your social and communication skills. Maybe you should take CSAS1 too.. and put yourself in others' shoes before you act that way. Do you think people will like it? Maybe u might not know it, but well, it does have an impact. A big one rather.

Anyway, on the brighter side, I had my 1st driving lesson today! Hahaha! And it's after work.. whoo! After so long, I finally get to learn driving. I could only blame myself for dragging too much time. Driving is really fun and addictive, and I can't wait for the next lesson man.. Haha.. My instructor's really kind and patient with me, and he's really a nice person. Although I made quite a number of mistakes due to my kan chiong-ness, he would still teach and correct me patiently. Thanks man. I hope I can meet him in my future lessons or I can get such good instructors in future.. haha..

Gotta wake up early tomorrow as there is a SVA conference to attend for the next 2 days. I seriously need my sleep.

2008-10-03T22:29:00.002+08:00

SIP is seriously taking a toll on me, be it physically or mentally. I'm seriously sick of this. Yesterday, I left the place at 9pm! Crap man! And that was the latest I had worked within these 4 weeks so far. On the average, I practically ended at around 7+ to 8pm, way after working hours man.. I might have done things slowly, as I wasn't sure of doing them as I didn't know whether was I doing correctly or not. When I needed assistance, he was away many times and hence, I had to wait till he returned to ask, causing delays... and at times, the humiliation, when I didn't do the proper way..

Ending work late really caused a huge chain of reactions. Ending late means reaching home late, which means having late dinners, leading to settling down to start work late, which means lesser time to do work and sleeping late, resulting in lack of sleep everyday. And this is what I had been going through for the past few weeks. Having late dinners every night, doing reports till late in the night, and serious lack of sleep.. There isn't any time for me to do my research on my project, and I haven't start on my project synopsis, which is due next Friday, and my project proposal, which is due next month. And worse still, I don't really understand my project, so I don't know how to start either..

Seriously, I'm lacking a life now.. Got tonnes of work to do as they keep piling up. I'm very scared and worried about my project synopsis, as the submission is next week, and I haven't even touch it... The proposal is the next big headache... haiz...

I wonder how am I able to sustain for the next 16 weeks...?

2008-09-28T13:14:00.002+08:00

Happy 19th birthday to me! Haha! It's actually yesterday and thanks for those who celebrated with me and thanks for the gifts too! =) I really appreciated alot. Thanks people!

I went to meet up with Mildred on Friday for dinner. As usual, I was OT-ing again, and I left TLL at about 7, so ended up meeting late.. =( The dinner was good and we went to have "supper" after that, and left for home after that. Not forgetting all the catching-up as well. Thanks for the chocs. =)

Went to celebrate with my family for lunch at Prima revolving restaurant near Vivo City there. We celebrated their wedding anniversary too, as it fell on 1 day before my birthday. So, it's always celebrated together every year. We went to Vivo City to shop after that and I bought a shirt, which I wanted to get a few months ago. Hung around there for 5 hours before meeting with Nic, Liwei, Khim, Gary, Juan and Jiahui for dinner at 8pm. Thanks for the cake and the Havainas sandals, and not forgetting the Bicycle deck from Nic. Thanks guys. =)

Gonna be very busy today with all the lab reports to write. To be exact, it's 1 week of reports! ZZZzzzz.. and I need to start on my project synopsis already, coz the deadline is on 10 Oct. It's getting nearer and nearer..

Once again, before signing off, Thanks to all for the celebrations and gifts!! =))

2008-09-20T00:43:00.002+08:00

My SIP had started for 2 weeks already.. OK.... didn't get what I had expected, coz I expected that I could do some animal-related research project there, but only to find out that I'm going to do on the genetics on Drosophila... =.= And it's on the somatic control on the female germline stem cell thing.. Everything sounded so chim to me la, and I don't understand anything.. I'm the only vet science student among the 10 of us who are attached there, and this makes me at a disadvantaged position, as I didn't learn what the biomolecular students learnt, about all the genetics stuff, except for MGen & MBio, which were my weakest subjects... ZZZZ..

I'm still kinda struggling with the work, protocols, theories and whatseoever that are related to my SIP and MP. Man... I don't think I'm really up to it, as genetics do bore me.. haiz... It's only 2 weeks, and I don't know how to survive for the next 18 weeks to come.. Anyway, everyday is like an OT day for me, as I always finished my work after office hours.. sianz.. and I was always the latest to leave (among the 10 of us). And, today was the latest, which was at 8.15pm or so. Walking out of NUS requires about 15 minutes of leisure walking. Lol. Took a bus to Vivo City and had my dinner alone, and went to shop around after that. I wanted to buy a pair of Nike sneakers just now, but I was contemplating whether to buy it or not. But in the end, I didn't buy it. Haha.. Reached home at 10+ pm, and this was like a routine to me.. sianz... Leaving TLL at 7+ and by the time I reached home its 8+, and after dinner and washing up, it would be close to 10pm already... haiz.. Where got time to relax? I haven't even start on my project proposal and synopsis. Coz I don't have the time and I don't know how to start...

It's getting late, and I'm feeling super sleepy now. I never had enough sleep since the start of SIP. SIP really drains me out...

2008-09-07T00:30:00.002+08:00

OK... My SIP is finally confirmed, and I'm posted to Temasek Life Sciences Laboratories (TLL), which is located in NUS. All the while, I wish to be attached to NUS for my SIP, and fortunately, my application to TLL was successful. I should be contented, even though I didn't manage to go Australia for OSIP.

I'm still having that kind of jittery feeling inside me as I'm the only vet science student in amongst the 10 people attached to TLL, and I'm not good in genetics stuff and I didn't learn those biomolecular stuff which the biomolecular students had learnt before. Haiz.. feeling kinda worried as I'm scared that I couldn't do a good job over there and affect both my SIP and MP results..

Anyway, went to recee at NUS today in my father's car, and I realized that there is a shorter route, rather than taking a train to Buona Vista. I can take a train to Harbourfront and change a bus and walk in, for a distance.. haha.. I guess I shall take this route to TLL but will still be going to Buona Vista to meet the rest for the first day.

Hope everything goes well for me...

2008-09-03T23:00:00.002+08:00

I finished my NAPFA today, and it was quite ok as there were 2 As, and I'm glad that my 2.4km run was a pass. HOWEVER, I didn't manage to pass my sit & reach, hence, I failed the whole test... =.= Feeling damn sianz la, and the thing was that I failed my sit & reach by only 2cm!!! Haiz... My body is simply rigid la.. And this is my 1st time failing NAPFA sia... ZZZZZ

This means that I had to retake my NAPFA in order not to go in to NS for the extra 3 weeks, and I need to work harder to obtain my silver award.

I'm having my Basic Theory Test tomorrow morning, and I just simply read through the book. I'm really scared will fail la.. haiz... Hope tomorrow will turn out fine..

2008-08-27T23:19:00.002+08:00

Today marks the end of sitting for exam papers in Temasek Polytechnic, and it ended off with BPharm. Generally, the paper was do-able and I hope that I can do well, but I doubt it... Yesterday's SAPrn was also do-able, and I was quite confident with it, but hopes were all dashed after the paper, when I realized I forgot to do a part of a question and many wrong answers.. I really don't wanna take supp paper or get a lousy grade for SAPrn such as a D or D+. My BPharm already can't get an A, and I don't want my GPA to suffer furthur, as it's pathetic enough already as I can't enter the uni anymore. I really hate it. Haiz.. My term test papers for the other 2 subjects weren't done well either.. and I hate to see history keep repeating itself over and over again.. I'm seriously very sick and tired of this..

NAPFA is next, and to be precise, it's on the 3 Sept, which is only next week, and I haven't done any training yet! I'm so afraid that I'll fail my NAPFA and I don't wanna go for the extra 2 weeks of BMT. Gotta work hard for at least a silver.

Feeling so tired now...

2008-08-20T23:34:00.002+08:00

It has been a LONG LONG time since this blog is updated.

Now it's the exams period so I had been busy in the recent 2 weeks. AHDis & LAST papers were already over, and SAPRN & BPharm are next. Today's LAST paper is complete s**t, and practically everyone is pissed with it, coz we studied so much and most of them didn't appear in the paper, while the topic which we didn't study appeared. Damn sian! I don't want another D or C in my transcript anymore, as I don't want my GPA to plunge any furthur. I hope that my LAST results wouldn't be that bad, but I did screw my practical test up... ZZZzzz...

After the LAST papers today, we, a total of 10 of us, went to Compass Point's Timezone to play the candy machine. LOL! The first station was simply not cooperating with us, but Alden & Jiahui continued with it, while the rest of us went to try out at different stations. In the end, all 3 stations that we played in stuck the jackpot. Hahaha! So, 3 jackpots in total. In the end, we got 3 bagfuls of sweets and 3 plush toys.. hahaa! And we spent a total of at least $130! Really alot sia..

Went home to have dinner before going back to BK to mug with some of them, but wasn't productive at all. Lol.. Feeling so tired now, but still have to mug though.. Haiz..

2008-07-25T22:37:00.003+08:00

It was a celebration dinner for Meiping's birthday yesterday, and 10 of us went to New York New York for dinner. Well, the only thing I could say was the food was just so-so, food portion was kinda small, and the service was...... well, fill it up yourself.

Yvonne, Nic, Liwei and Wilson joined us for a movie later in the night, and we all caught The Dark Knight. Haha.. I thought the show was good, like many expected it to be, but, in my opinion, it wasn't that good. I couldn't really understand the whole movie at all! LOL! So many twists and turns in the story plot that made me lost since the start of the movie. Perhaps I'm just stupid and dumb.. Anyway, I found the movie was kinda draggy, and I was almost half-asleep while watching it.. LOL! But there is no doubt that the movie was filled with good action and suspense, and kudos to the late Heath Ledger in his role of the joker. He's simply awesome. So, I think I could only rate the movie 3/5.

Anyway these are some of the pics taken in Mutts & Mittens:

Taylor & I

Dimmie

Snowflake

Wigi & Storm

2008-07-13T01:10:00.002+08:00

Ok.. I have decided to go ahead for my OSIP in Melbourne, and all I have to do now is to wait for the reply from Melbourne to see whether the application is confirmed or not. If it's unsuccessful, then I will be doing my SIP locally, which is fine with me too. So, I'll just wait and see.. haha...

Went to Mutts & Mittens with a group of friends on Tues, and I really enjoyed going there.. And it is sure addictive to go there. Everyone of us was thinking of going there the next day too.. haha.. but we didn't la.. So, we are gonna make it an every Tues affair to make a trip down to M&M. Over there, majority are mongrels, with a few huskies and golden retrievers.. Haha.. I'm so tempted to adopt a golden retriever, as it was so cute and peaceful.. haha. But too bad, I'm not allowed to have a dog in my home... ZZZZ...

Next week's schedule will be kinda busy as there are many tests. There are LAST tutorial quiz and SAPrn lab assessment on Mon, AHDis II lecture quiz on Wed, and CSAS 4 mock interview on Fri.. I need to study man, but I can hardly find the motivation to get started.. Shit.. I'm simply procrastinating and leaving things till the last minute. And I HATE IT!! ARGG!!! Feeling so shitty now...

Gotta go to sleep already...

2008-07-06T00:23:00.002+08:00

Ok.. I'm facing a BIG BIG dilemma right now.. which is to go to Australia or not.. Well, I got shortlisted to go to Melbourne, which was my first choice. And it seemed to be a good thing. However, there are many doubts.

Firstly, going to Melbourne for 2 months means that I have to do 3 months of in-house SIP, which includes doing an in-house project for my major project. I'm afraid that this might not reflect well on my transcript. Haiz.. If I appeal to go to Perth's UWA, which is a more recognized university, I can get to do my major project there. However, the project there is dealing with genetics, which I'm not that interested in and I'm not good at it. And in Melbourne, it is about the pharmaceutical stuff, which appeals to me better.

Then, if I were to go for local SIP instead of OSIP, we can't get to choose where we wanna go, and I'm scared of getting a place which does not interest me, then I would suffer for the entire 5 months.. But if I'm doing my SIP locally, then the finance part wouldn't really be a problem, as it's quite financially heavy if I go to Australia..

Oh man, it's really a very tough decision to make. If I go for the sake of the major project, I would go to UWA, but if for the sake of interest, it would be Melbourne.. Haiz.. I'm really very confused and lost.. coz my main worry is the major project, as I'm afraid I would not be getting a good grade if I do an in-house project. And the major project is the most important and has the heaviest weightage in the entire 3 years in poly. Sigh...

Ok.. I have till Tuesday to make my decision.. This is so tough....

2008-07-01T23:39:00.002+08:00

Hmm.... many unpleasant and unhappy things had happened during the past week, both to me and people around me. I guess I shan't go into the details.. Anyway, I found a Backstreet Boys Unbreakable concert video on MSN Videos. Whoo~! And it's the concert in London! Haha.. Thanks MSN for uploading the video. How I wish they had an Unbreakable concert in Singapore too... =(

Went to Harbourfront with mum today to collect the newly purchased digital camera, as I had no lessons today. Then, we had our lunch at Subway, as there was a promotion, which was 50% discount on 6-inch sandwich from 3-5pm and it's for today only. Haha.. We had a takeaway for the whole family for our dinner after that, and so, my mum and I had 2 meals of Subway.. haha!

Ok.. I guess there's nothing else already.. Feeling so bored now....

2008-06-15T00:44:00.002+08:00

I had been pretty busy for the past week with the preparation of the logistics for the upcoming camp on Monday. So, I had been going back to school almost everyday. My assignments had been put on hold for the moment, so I guess I had to chiong when the camp's over..

Went to recce with the rest at OCH with almost the entire crew for the camp yesterday, which is on Friday night, and got ourselves familiarized with the routes.

So tired now... and I hope all goes well during the 2-day camp. Fine weather, smooth-sailing programme flow etc etc..

2008-06-06T21:36:00.002+08:00

Ok... The term tests are finally over. And the torture is over, only for now.. Today's papers were completely screwed up! SAPrn (Surgical & Anaesthetic Principles) and CSAS 4 were like............ Sianz man.. Studied SAPrn kinda last minute and nothing went into my stupid brain.. All in all, I already lost like 19 marks! Sianz!!! Another D in the making...

Then CSAS 4 was tough man. I had a hard time figuring out the adjustment of tone and the 2 blanks in the cloze passage... Haiz... I guess this is another screw up..

Because of these 2 papers, especially the SAPrn, the bad mood came acting up again... Very frustrated when doing the paper and very pissed off after that..

After the CSAS 4 paper, went to have a Kopi break with a few others before heading home... So bored la... But the term break is gonna be a hectic one, I guess.

Ok, gonna play game liao...

2008-05-25T13:28:00.002+08:00

Ok... I should be studying now, since there's an AHDis II quiz on Wednesday, but I seriously got no mood to mug at all.. And even though the term test week is next week, I haven't really start my mugging yet.. It makes me feel so guilty of not starting to mug..

But, come to think of it, perhaps, it's kinda pointless to continue to mug too. No matter how much effort I would put in, and no matter how good the grades are gonna be, my stupid GPA won't increase much, and with that GPA, I can't get into any universities, especially the local ones. So, mugging so much isn't really gonna help much.. Sianz...

While a part of me is telling to start mugging, another part of me gets simply turned off by the thought of mugging. So contradicting right? Well, life is always contradicting and putting people in a dilemma. That's why life sucks.. Haha.... Well, I can't find the motivation to mug, and it was lost since year 1 bah, eversince my grades started to take the plunge.. and they continuing plunging, even up till now. If only I could find back my motivation to start mugging again...

Now, i'm just left with an empty shell, with my soul leaving my body.. Everyday, I'm just like a walking zombie, without any form of life. No matter how I tried to change, it would always be futile. I'm really very sick with this kind of life that I'm leading now.. Perhaps this is my fate throughout my life, and I guess, I should just reside to fate..

2008-05-17T00:36:00.002+08:00

I'm back from Wei Khim's birthday celebration just about an hour ago.. We went to eat at Sakae Sushi at Park Mall, and since it was a buffet dinner, everyone practically ate alot.. haha! Alden was always ordering plates and plates of salmon sushi, and KC, his fish roe sushi.. LOL! For me, I tried to eat alot too, but gave up earlier than the rest of the guys as my stomach started to give me a bit of problems..

Today, we had LAST(Laboratory Animal Science & Technology) lab and we were supposed to do subcutaneous, intraperitoneal and intravenous injections. Our group took alot of time to finish with the subcutaneous injection as we were having problems restrainting our mice.. When everyone finished with the intraperitoneal, we were still trying to restraint them... ZZZ.. Luckily, I managed to do both the subcutaneous and intraperitoneal injections successfully, but didn't get to the intravenous as there was insufficient time.. When I did the intraperitoneal injection on my mouse, I was practically stoned during the entire procedure.. The mouse was struggling and squeaking loudly when the needle was poked in. For me, I just wanna do it quickly and try to end its misery ASAP.. Somehow after the lab, the mouse was kind of traumatised by the procedures and handling... Sorry mouse...

Ok, I need to do my assignment for LAST already..

2008-05-07T22:11:00.002+08:00

School is as per normal now.. juz that lectures are getting more boring.. haha... except for BPHARM! Haha! I simply like BPHARM... and I guess its the most interesting subject for this semester. The workload is getting heavier, but then I seem to be slacking still... sian... I really got no motivation to study man... haiz... I wonder when I will ever find my motivation...

Ok... got nothing much to update la.. Coz my life is too boring le.. LOL..

It had been months since we really chatted..... and met...

2008-05-01T01:20:00.002+08:00

Ok... It's like 1.20am now... and I'm not asleep yet. Ok, this is crap.

Recently, I sensed that there were many things that were happening around me, but then, there are many things i'm just unaware of. I'm kept in the dark of may things, and even up till now, it's still the same. I don't know what's all this about, but anyway, if things are meant to be known, it will be, sooner or later I guess.

I'm really very tired of these stuffs, and I guess there isn't any place where I belong to. I know it's useless to talk about this crappy shit. I had been trying to search for the answer for the past 18-19 years of my pathetic life, but to no avail. Maybe, I just don't belong to any place. Maybe, I'm supposed to live in my own world, this stupid world of loneliness. Well, I don't know...

Ok, got to go... coz it's already 1.37am...

I don't know what had happened, maybe you're just trying to avoid me. I don't know. Just hoping that the hostility will end.

2008-04-24T00:33:00.002+08:00

Ok.. Back to school alrdy. In fact it's already the 3rd day. But, I didnt go on the 1st day, coz of the stupid fever I had on Sunday. Haiz... 1st week of school was kinda ok, except that I dunno how am I going to pull the stupid GPA up when all the subjects I'm having now are 4CUs.. Things don't seem positive these days, and the future just seems so blight to me. Sigh... Seriously, I don't know what to do man... Another thing is the SIP, student internship programme for short. Don't know where to look for my SIP, don't know whether to go overseas or not.. Haiz.. I wanna get something that is interesting to do, that will last for my 5 months of the attachment. Haiz.. feeling so troubled now..

Week 0 was already over, and I'm really missing it. I miss the times where we had fun as a whole LT. I miss the times where we had fun with A8G2. I miss the times where we cheer and laugh like mad. Why must happy events be so short-lived?

Looking back, perhaps, I didn't really do a good job in leading the freshmen, as I know that there are room for improvements. But, well, at least I know that I did better than last year, as I admit that I didn't do a good job last year. It's my fault.

I hope that I'm still able to see A8G2 often in school, before going for my SIP in Sept.. Haiz... Time really flies, and it flies too fast.. Looking back, I was a freshmen 2 years ago, but now, I'm already in year 3...... sad man...

Ok... Week 0 follow up will be on Friday. I hope that majority of A8G2 will turn up, then it will be fun again.. haha... And regarding the Valiance outing, perhaps it is not really confirm now... sigh... things are always so shaky..

Gotta go liao...

*I miss you*

2008-04-18T00:09:00.002+08:00

Week 0 was super fun! Getting to know new people, especially freshmen, was so cool. My class was A8G2!! A super fun class, with nice and fun people to talk to. Hahaha..

Came back from the overnight programme which started from 4pm yesterday to 6am this morning. And there were activities throughout, starting with mass dance, campfire, Cluedo, and class bonding session during R&R. Everybody was very tired after Cluedo, but the entire class still managed to stay up to play games and chatted about their experiences during Cluedo. Some of them went for breakfast after dismissal. The OLs and Logs had to clear all the stuff, especially campfire. Then, those people from Adroit went crazy, for no apparent reason. They started cheering and dancing like nobody's business, when the others were so dead and stoning...

After clearing, we went back to the LT to rest and then breakfast at Mac at CPF building. We, too, nearly went crazy with all the lame stuffs. We thought of our cheers to counter Adroit and Clandestine... hahaha. It was damn funny! Papaya papaya raisin raisin! BANANAAAA!!!! LMAO!
All thanks to Stephen! HAHAHA... He's gonna teach the entire LT this cheer man!

Ok... tomorrow's the last day of Week 0, and it's kinda sad.. Whenever it is the end of some camp or orientation, there will be a kind of emo-ey feeling that will lurk around, affecting many people. Shall see what will take place tomorrow then...

2008-04-13T22:38:00.002+08:00

Week 0 orientation is simply 2 days away! And I'm kinda excited about it. Although I was an OL last year, and this year too, I still feel the excitement of orientation. I knew I didn't do a good job last year in leading the freshmen, and I will realize my mistakes and try not to repeat them this time, and hope that I would do a better job this year.

Although the orientation is just 2 days away, we have not finished with our LT deco. We still left quite a bit to do, while other LTs are almost completed. ZZZzzzz..... We are gonna chiong tomorrow and finish whatever we are left with. GO VALIANCE! Our motto: No Honour, No Glory. Only Cheap Shots.

Anyway, finally, I bought my PSP today! And it's the WHITE one! Yea..!! I had been wanting to buy it since last year, and finally, I got my hands on it now... hahaha! The PSP is empty now, so gonna take some games from Nic tomorrow... Final Fantasy 7: Crisis Core!

Got to go.

2008-03-14T01:26:00.002+08:00

OH DAMN!! I'm freaking frustrated and furious with my stupid results! Coz basically, I didn't do well, and below my expectations. zZzZZzZzzzzz...... Ok, I got my results yesterday, and after that, I was feeling very shitty..... D+ for MBIO, C+ for both MCT and ACM, C for AHDis and B for Freehand drawing... My core subjects were the most important and yet, got this kind of shitty results! What the hell is wrong with me, I simply can't perform.. And, my GPA had dropped to a furthur 2.88!!!! How to enter a university with such shitty results and GPA! Dammit! It's as good as impossible...

I seriously don't know how to carry on with my studies like that, with only 1 more year to go, and 1 more studying semester, how is it possible to pull up my GPA? People are either maintaining or improving in their GPA, while I'm always plummetting! DAMN! And the entry requirements for university have to be from the 1st 5 semesters.. A Level holders already have to have As and Bs to enter the university, and logically, it will be tougher for poly graduates! I seriously don't know how to carry on! DAMN LA! Anyway, I hope that the next semester will be better, and also for the major project... I seriously cannot afford to slip any furthur... Or else, it will be hell!

Anyway, I went out with some ASc members in the afternoon, with only about 13 turned up. Some left early, while some came later... Caught 'Horton' at Vivo City, and it was a lame yet funy movie.. Hahaha.. Had a late dinner at Cafe Cartel before heading home...

Feeling very tired now, and need to be in school tomorrow for LC play again...

2008-02-29T17:27:00.002+08:00

OK... This is the 4th day I'm rotting at home already, and this feeling sux! There is completely nothing to do at home, except to face the stupid computer, which bores me easily.. I wanna go out, but there is no one who wanna go out with me also... haiz.. There are many things in mind that I wanna do, but there's always no company.. Damn sian la...

The weekends are coming, and perhaps its better than the weekdays. Gonna start work next week, and the LC play too.... I guess the busy schedule will start from next week onwards... Haiz.. at least there's something to do..

Ok.. there's nothing for me to add on already, because this is such a mundane life. Sad man...

2008-02-25T23:22:00.004+08:00

YEAH!!!! Exams are finally over for me! But sadly, this also marks the end of year 2.. =( And in the next couple of months, I'll be in Year 3 already... Time really passes very fast.. and it's the end of Year 2. Next, it would be Year 3, then SIP, then graduation! After that, it would be NS!!!! Wow, this is really..... indescribable in words.

Anyway, today's AHDis paper wasn't bad, at least I have some confidence in it, as compared to my other subjects.. I think my MBIO paper was already a goner for me.. Juz hoping that I would not fail the subject. And my GPA would continue to drop.. Hope not though, as I want to graduate with a minimum of 3.5, and this sounds so impossible, with 1 more semester to go.

Anyway, after the paper today, we, comprised of Alden, Nic, KC, Liwei, Xin Er, Jia Hui, Wei Khim and I, went to celebrate Alden's birthday at Kenny Rogers at Suntec. We ate a super-filling lunch, which left me full until not long ago, when I juz ate 2 slices of bread, without any dinner.. After that, we wanted to play pool, but went to the arcade at Marina Square instead. We played till evening, when we decided to go home. Nic, Wei Khim and Jia Hui went to Liwei's place for mahjong while KC and Xin Er went home. Alden went for his 2nd round with his friends. I left first as I went to meet her. Didn't join Nic they all as I was feeling tired, coz of sleeping at 5.30am! So, I went home to rot instead.. haha!

Ok... with the holidays here, I think I can prepare to rot at home this week. As of next week, my schedule will start to be busy, due to work and LC play. OLTC will be held in a month's time and there comes Week 0. Woot~! Its gonna be exciting again... haha!

Some pictures at Kenny Rogers:KC, Alden, Nic and I

Alden and his kiss

2008-01-27T01:26:00.000+08:00

Today was really a tiring day. In the morning, there was Project ECO's newspaper collection at the various areas in Tampines. It was really tiring when my group had to cover 5 blocks... As a FA, I also had to help the group out as they were short-handed, as 1 left to the other group.... Don't wanna talk about it.. Juz makes my blood boil..

It ended around noon, when I met up with Nic and Liwei for lunch, and a little shopping... then headed home.

Left home around 5.30pm for 6C class gathering at Bugis and this time round, the record was broken! Haha! There was Jie Ming, Hsiang Ling, Lois, Qin Pei, Michelle, Adeline, Melissa, Yao Yuan, Woon Jeck and I. We went to have steamboat dinner where we spent about 3 hrs there.. Our table had the most food ordered and consumed as Hsiang Ling really ate A LOT! LOL!

We went to Starbucks to chill and chat till about 11.30pm where we caught the last train home. It was really a long time since I met the rest as the gathering normally consists of Hsiang Ling, Jie Ming, Woon Jeck and I.. HAHA.. So there were more people today and we caught up quite a bit. I guess the next one would be at Melissa's place during CNY... haha... MAHJONG!!

2008-01-13T13:35:00.000+08:00

It had been a long time since I last updated.. and here remains the same..

Workload is snow-balling, and it continues.. Assignments' deadlines are getting closer each day... The main killer is freehand drawing. Left with 2 more art pieces and I'm still struggling with them.. AHDis and ACM assignments are really heavy weight too.. Tests are coming up, with MCT and MBIO starting this Friday.. Oh man... time is really limited and seriously, 24 hours a day is simply too little.

Anyway, TP Open House was held since Thursday till yesterday, but I was involved on only Friday and yesterday. Open House was really fun, and I was apparently helping in out in the Vet Tech and Biotech booths and also ASc side with the cheering.. haha.. Introducing to the visitors our course was relatively ok... but it wasn't really easy to get them interested... perhaps due to my speech bah... kinda monotonous tone.. Last night was Jam & Hop, but only stayed there for a while, and most of the time we weren't really dancing... Lol... If there's a chance next year, I don't mind helping out in the Open House again..

Back to work..... =(

2007-12-25T14:05:00.000+08:00

Looking back at those old pictures in my computer, which include all those taken from sec school and JC, lots of memories came flooding in.. once again. Then, when I saw her in some of the pictures, a mix of feelings flooded my heart. Regrets, sense of loss, loneliness etc etc, because some of the them are undescribable in words.

I really regretted letting her slipped away a couple of years back, and I think what's done could not be undone anymore. I know it was my fault in the 1st place, by not having the courage to tell her. There are some more stuffs which I won't elaborate here, because I really felt bad about it. For some people, they probably know who she is.

It will be a lonely Christmas again for me this year, as there wasn't any soul to be here with me, and others are probably busy with their things too. Family members are out shopping and here I'm alone at home. And, I'm sick! =( Sianz... sick in the holiday season... Well, it will always be a lonely Christmas for me, in the past, present or the future..

Missing her, as she remains irreplaceable in my heart. Once again, my heart is filled with regrets..

2007-12-23T13:00:00.000+08:00

Had a meeting with fellow MJC close friends on Thurs.. as a mini gathering and also, to celebrate Nic's birthday.. And our group comprised of Fang Lu, Kevin, Daron, Nic and I... Haha...

We went to Kallang Leisure Park in noon and in the end, we went to KBox.. lol! Coz ice-skating was too expensive.. K-ed until 7, and Daron left early, Nic went to church, and Kevin, Fang Lu and I went to Tampines. After dinner, we went seperate ways. Daron is the earliest to go to NS, which is next week, coz he got selected for Commandos.. Followed by Kevin, then Nic... Hope we can meet up when everyone is free again..

Had ASc's Year End Party on Fri, and well, I got nothing much to say about it... Shall not comment anything...

Yesterday was our class' Christmas Party held at Sherry's place, and spent the night watching movies.. haha.. Then, we were supposed to go to chill out somewhere, but it was too late and there wasn't any transport back home... So, some of us left for home, while the rest went to town to catch a movie...

Haiz... holidays are ending soon. To be exact, it's left with 1 more week.. and none of us started to do our freehand drawing.. LOL! Sianz man! Don't wanna draw also must draw.... Sianz!

2007-12-19T22:44:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Kuala Lumpur yesterday night, and it was really tiring... I'm still feeling very tired now... lol. I slept an average of 5 hours a day only... and I could hardly catch any sleep in the bus at all..

Of course, in KL, most of the time was spent on shopping, shopping and more shopping. In total, I bought 3 T-shirts, 1 pair of jeans, a belt and a pair of bermudas.. Oh man! I seriously had overspent too much on this trip... sianz... and I had to shelve my plans of buying a PSP for the moment... Haix...

My cousins, bro and I went to Red Box Plus Karaoke (which is almost like KBox) and the pricing was cheap! It was SGD8++ per person, which included a meal, buffet dessert and free flow of drinks!! Furthurmore, all the songs there were super updated! Almost every song you can find on MTV could be found there! Haha! Wah... It was super worth it man! To add on, the seats were leather-made with a pub-like table, AND, there was a PERSONAL TOILET in every room!!!!It was super incomparable to KBox!!

We went to Eye of Malaysia, which was a ferris wheel, but the view wasn't that spectacular. I bet Singapore's will be a much better one. Haha.. Not forgetting the Skybridge of the Petronas Twin Towers...Eye of Malaysia

Marcus
Me

In the Pavilion

In Red Box Plus Karaoke

Marcus and Bro singing

The personal toilet. So cool

2007-12-15T00:13:00.000+08:00

Term Test is finally over!!!! Finally, it's time for a short break, and a good time for some rest! The term test was really energy draining, and you can imagine that the semestral exams will be worse. Anyway, for this time round, things don't look good for me, as I practically screwed up Animal Health & Diseases, Animal Care & Management and Molecular Biology.... especially MBio... SIANZ la! I could not even remember what I had mugged previously and I didn't know my facts well.. haix.. Don't care liao la, coz what's over is already over... and these 3 subjects are predicted to be D-in-the-making... Help man!

Today's Mammalian Cell Tech was ok... and this was my most confident paper amongst all! Biology really sux man! Wished I didn't take this stupid course in the 1st place, and should have stayed in the A levels..

Gonna leave Singapore tomorrow morning to K.L... and will be back on Tuesday... Anyway, I will be packed for the whole of next week, so wanna work also can't work liao.. =(

Gotta go and sleep liao, coz need to wake up early tomorrow..

2007-12-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

OK.... It had been a LONG LONG time since this place was last updated... Partly due to the VERY hectic lifestyle I'm facing now and there's nothing for me to update about.. lol... See, this place is completely dead man...

Ok.. Term tests are coming up.... and the 1st paper will start on MONDAY!!!! Which is 2 days later... and the paper is AHDis aka Animal Health & Diseases... sianz... zZzZzZzzzzZZZ.....
Havent finish studying any of the subjects, with all of them hanging here and there, and of course, memorizing is not done yet either...

Argg... I'm seriously facing a crisis of lack of time to mug... Obviously, there isn't any much time left.. Haiz...

Anyway, I saw her that day when I was on the way home.. I could only see her from the side and back view.. and seconds later, she was gone.... =( I could only blame myself for not being able to pluck up my courage to talk to her.. I guess I was to blame from the very start... all the way back to a couple of years back... I wished that I didn't make those stupid mistakes last time.. if so, perhaps, history would be changed.. Missing her...

2007-11-24T01:01:00.000+08:00

Whoo!!! Healthy Lifestyle Week is over!! But not really officially over, as there is one more workshop for Year 1 and 2 students... haha.. Anyway, it's really a relief that this project is mainly over. Although events like ARCHIVE and Rush Hour didn't turn out well, Blood Donation Drive was simply GREAT! We exceeded our target with 326 blood donors and even the deputy director of the Library complimented us! Whoo! That simply made us feel that the effort that all of us had put in for the past few months had paid off. I would like to thank the club members for their help, especially those who had volunteered their services although they didn't have the allocated duty. Thanks guys! Really appreciated your help! Well, hope that there will be another Blood Donation Drive coming up. Then we'll be able to beat last year's record on the amount of blood collected.. haha..

This week was really a tiring one, with so many tests and of course, freehand drawing to do. I had been burning midnight oil every night, till about 2am and could only catch about 5 hours of sleep every night. It's really very tiring and I'm glad the weekends are here, whereby I could catch more sleep..

Anyway, MBIO paper today was a screwup... haiz... don't know most of my stuff. And I only figured out the the plasmids, phages and PCR only today.. after having crash course by the help of the others... Haiz.. I seriously think I can't do biology man... Just sux at it.. sianz...

Feeling so tired now.. wanna go and sleep liao..

2007-11-18T22:38:00.000+08:00

It had been some time since this place was updated... and it's dying..

Many things happened during the past 3 weeks, but nothing much interesting to talk about too. Our HLW team had been extremely busy for the past few weeks, doing proposals and other planning stuffs. Nicholas, Kam Kit and I had a hard time figuring out the manpower allocation for the entire event, and we are having shortage of people now.

Tests are coming in every week, and my freehand drawing is really screwed. Seriously, I don't have any talent at all man. Can't draw for nuts and my tracing of the school looks so screwed now... Argg!! There is simply a shortage of time to do my stuffs... Haix....

Anyway, I want to publicise the Blood Drive event here. Lol.. if anyone happens to read.. haha..

Blood Donation Drive
Date: 20-22 Nov
Time: 11am-5pm
Venue: TP Library, Level 9

Please show your support in this event to save lives.

2007-11-04T00:21:00.000+08:00

Hmm... I woke up very early today coz I had to work.. as an invigilator for the music theory exams.. Everything ended at around 12 noon and I went for lunch with my aunts, uncle, mum and cousin at Raffles City. Then, since I'm already there, I went to get donuts from Donut Factory... hahaha... But surprisingly, it was 12.30pm and the queue was very short. So, I queued for about 15min only.. haha... But this time round, I didn't buy much, only 6...

Went home after lunch coz mum wasn't feeling well.... Rotted most of the time at home again.... and I didn't study much for AHDis and not forgetting freehand drawing.... sianz...

Mum is sick again, and it had been for the past week.. I really hope that she'll be well very soon...

2007-10-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

Had a great weekend, because I had a so-called class outing to Wild Wild Wet yesterday. Wei Khim, Alden, Jia Hui, Liwei, Nic and I were the 1st batch of people to be there at 10-something. It's good to be there early coz there wasn't many people... haha...

We played all the rides there, and the only 2 rides that justified the price were U-larlar and the Banana.. We played the U-larlar 4 times but we didn't have a proper picture taken.. =(

Japheth, Wilson and Desmond came at around 12+ and so, the outing turned out to be 9 people... haha.... But the record had not been broken yet... LOL. We left at around 6pm and most of us were burnt.. And I was the one who was the worst. Generally, I was burnt from head to toe... just like a cooked prawn.. I guess I could only blame myself for being stubborn by not applying sunblock lotion... And I'm still suffering from the burns and the pain now....

We had steamboat for dinner at Marina Bay to celebrate Wilson's birthday, but Japheth, Desmond and Alden didn't join us..

Today, I went to Qian Hu Fish Farm trying to source for fish nets but to no avail, as the nets that we wanted were not for sale... sianz.... Don't know where else to find those shallow nets le...

Anyway, got to go to watch the big game now... bye

2007-10-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

Wee...... Finally it's the end of the 2-month long holidays.. I had been waiting so long le... haha... And school starts tomorrow! The stress would be back, but of course, there'll be fun as well..

Today was officially my last day of work at Pet Lovers Centre. Maybe I'll consider working during the next holidays at December... but I shall see how..

Hmm.... Nothing much to add on actually.. Had ASc chalet at Downtown East on Wednesday, and I managed to stay over for the 2nd night due to work.. and the main-comms were busy doing their proposals. Of course, I joined Nic and Kam Kit for our Healthy Lifestyle Week... And before I forget, this event will start about 3 weeks later.... That's so fast! And there are somemore stuff to be done...

Got to go.... School's starting tomorrow... =)

2007-10-14T01:24:00.000+08:00

Yea, today was a break for me. And I went to meet up with 2 other primary school friends, Hsiang Ling and Jie Ming. It's always the 3 of us when we are having a mini gathering. LOL! The most is with the addition of Woon Jeck. Haha... Well, he's not free today as he's preparing for the As, as well as the rest.. coz I guess it's about 5 people in 6C didn't go for the JC route, and many of them are in the likes of RJC, HCI, NJC and SAJC... Wanna wish them well for their As, which starts 2 weeks later...

The 3 of us met up and went for lunch at Pasta Mania at Cathay Cineleisure, where we sat there for quite sometime having some catching up... and of course joking around too.. lol.. Then, we went around Orchard Rd to find for a ladies' tie (or unisex tie) as Hsiang Ling was looking for one.. After a long search, we managed to find a couple, and one cost $69.90!!!! Wah.. so expensive... Branded what... lol... But in the end, she didn't buy.

Went for pool next while she went home... Played for an hour before heading to Funan to search for PS3... In the end, the shops were closed! Can you believe it, the shops were closed when we went there at 8.15pm??!! It's so early! Haiz, and Jie Ming said he would go down tomorrow morning... juz for his PS3...

Well, I'm not sure whether I would be working tomorrow, coz boss said most probably not, but still unsure yet.. Haha... Don't work also can la, so tired sia... lol... 1 more week till sem 2.2 starts! Woo..!!! Can't wait man! Wish time could pass a little faster.. haha...

2007-10-06T23:49:00.000+08:00

Haiz... I had been working everyday since last week, from morning till evening.. Feeling so tired everyday, and can't find much time to relax everytime.. Haiz, school is gonna start in about 2 weeks time... Haha, that's really fast, and it is better for me.. haha, coz I don't like holidays. Holidays are really not for me...

So many things are missing out during this holiday, eg. Siloso, movies, outings and FUN! Haiz.... How to go out and have fun when you are working everyday..? So sianz... Life really sux man! And meaningless too!

Sigh, how am I gonna endure through another 2 more weeks? Sianz..

2007-09-29T00:30:00.000+08:00

Went to meet up with nic, liwei and alden juz now at compass point for jamming.. On top of that, they passed me my birthday gift, which were a card guard and a new pack of cards, the Black Tiger. Thanks guys for the gifts! =D

Hmm... Nothing to add on le... coz life is always so mundane and boring...

2007-09-28T00:12:00.000+08:00

Happy 18th birthday to me..... LOL! Just turned 18 today.. after like so long.. haha... 27/09...

Anyway, birthday so what? Still have to go and work today.. And everyday work is so mundane... Things are juz repeating over and over again... Every year's birthday is always the same. Nothing is different and nothing has changed. Same old history again... What to do? Bang the wall meh? Lol... sigh... That's life for you..

Celebrated mum and dad's 25th wedding aniversary yesterday at some posh restaurant and the bill really cost a bomb! I think that would be the 1st and last time we'll be patronizing that place le.. haha..

Anyway, gonna sleep alrdy. I must wake up early tomorrow coz need to start work at 10am.

2007-09-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

Got this video filmed in our class chalet that took place a few days ago. When we were filming it, it was much more hilarious as compared to watching the video.. Hahaha, enjoy it!

2007-09-19T22:37:00.000+08:00

Whoo... Just returned from the class' chalet this noon, which was held in Aranda. It's a 3D2N thing and we really enjoyed ourselves. We spent most of the time playing mahjong, to the extent of playing till the wee hours in the morning. And we made a short video which was damn hilarious. LOL! Time really passed very fast during these 3 days and before we knew it, the chalet was already over. Hope that there will be another one for the next holiday. Haha.. More outings for this holiday would be good. Haha, but I hope that I would be able to make it also.

Recently, there were quite a number of things that had happened. Of course, there were both good and bad. When good things happen, of course, everyone would be happy. However, if things aren't looking that positive, people around will more or less be affected. Why must things be taken so badly? Even things are not smooth-sailing or positive, we should try to see things at a different angle, and try to look at it at a positive manner.

Of course, it is human nature to feel disturbed by such things initially, but, we should not be taking them so seriously to the extent of affecting others' mood and dampening the atmosphere everyone is in.

Hmm.. gonna start working tomorrow already. Haiz.. lesser free time liao..

2007-09-15T23:48:00.000+08:00

Whoo.. Got my own laptop today.. After 3 weeks.. haha.. And it's still empty in there. LOL.

Anyway, Backstreet Boys' latest music video "Inconsolable" is finally out! Woots~! It's really a very cool video! Simply love their songs, and they are really talented.. It had been 2 long years since they released their new album, and their latest album "Unbreakable" will be out on Oct 30... I seriously can't wait till then man!

Here's the video, "Inconsolable". Enjoy! =D

2007-09-11T12:34:00.000+08:00

Jobless... Bored... Nothing to talk about... Sianz...

Anyway, the results will be released on Thursday, and it is just 2 days away! Really very scary sia. I don't know how the results will turn out to be. I seriously hope that there would not be any supp paper to be taken. Sigh..

Lift Me Up by Backstreet Boys

Liftin' me up, me up, me up, me up. Liftin' me up, me up, me up, me up...

When I'm down on my luck and I'm searching for my soul
When I'm feeling too much and I start to lose control
When I'm down so low that even enemies don't wanna know
You still care for me, say a prayer for me, and I know

Oooh, I like you hangin' around
'Cause you lift me up when I am upside down
Oooh, you are my favorite sound
'Cause you're always down for

Lifting me up like an angel when I hit the ground
Feel your arms all around me when I'm feeling down
Lift me up like an angel when I hit my low
When your arms are around me I don't wanna let you go

When I'm lost along the way and I can't face another day
And if I stumble on the road and if I can't carry the load
And if I lose my faith, and kindness, and generosity
Would you hold my hand?
Say you understand my pain

Oooh, I like you hangin' around
'Cause you lift me up when I am upside down
Oooh, you are my favorite sound
'Cause you're always down for

Lifting me up like an angel when I hit the ground
Feel your arms all around me when I'm feeling down
Lift me up like an angel when I hit my low
When your arms are around me
I don't wanna let you go

It's been a long hard road, and it's only just begun, my friend
And this I know
You helped me carry the load
'Cause you're always down for

Lifting me up like an angel when I hit the ground
Feel your arms all around me when I'm feeling down
Lift me up like an angel when I hit my low
Well, you're always around
You're my favourite sound

Lift me up like an angel when I hit the ground
Feel your arms all around me when I'm feeling down
Lift me up like an angel when I hit my low
When your arms are around me I don't wanna let you go

I don't wanna let you go
'Cause you lift me up now
Well, you're always around..
You're my favorite sound
Lift me up now
You lift me up
Lift me up now
Yeah, you're always around
You're my favourite sound
Lift me up

Taken from http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/Lift-Me-Up-lyrics-Backstreet-Boys/A27D2EDB84FB41EC48256FEC000CCEB2

2007-09-01T01:11:00.000+08:00

Whee~! Today marks the end of the semestral exams for sem 2.1! And it also marks the end of sem 2.1.. Wow.. time passed really very fast.. because the start of the semester seemed like yesterday, and snap, the semester has ended today.

Anyway, today's AAP paper sux big time! Really felt shitty during the 2 excruciating hours sitting in the sports hall. I already prepared myself to do real badly this time round, even before the paper begins. My mind was as blank as a sheet of paper when I stepped into the exam venue, and as I browsed through the questions, I was really stuck at some of them.. Sigh..I had forgotten most of what I had 'studied' the day before.. Seriously, I pray that I do not want to get the bloody supp-paper for any of my subjects..

Next, we had lunch at Seoul Garden to celebrate Wei Juan's birthday and Penguin's belated birthday. I really ate non-stop until I was tired of eating.. haha! After that was pool at bugis.. I went to some fluorishers' gathering with Alden and Nic. Wow, it was really surprising to see those people perform.. Skilful man..

Holidays are here, so I really hoped to have a fulfilling one before the battle of sem 2.2 commences. Haha! Happy holidays people..

2007-08-24T14:01:00.000+08:00

This is my 1st century of post. Wow, time passed really very fast.. It had been more than a year since I made this blog.

The semestral exams started today, with AIMM being the 1st paper. I guess it's not really done well, with 10 marks down the drain. Haiz... it always happen. So, I'm sort of rotting now.. Taking a short break before going back to the notes... Haven't been studying hard for the past few weeks, and I'm really procrastinating, and this is the consequences of it. It seems as though history always repeats itself, as this was what had happened last semester. Sigh...

Recently, I had always been thinking of the past. From primary school days to secondary school days to JC days and now, the poly days. Looking back, of course, there were many wonderful memories, especially during the primary school days, where life seemed to be easy-going. I could remember, that I used to play soccer, catch spiders, crickets or tadpoles almost everyday. Haha.. In secondary school, during sec 3 and sec 4, the class of E4 was one of the best classes I had. Lots of memories too. In MJC, 06S204 was also another one. Few of us would always hang out together during recess and after school, and mugged together as well. The best times of the short-lived JC life was during orientation, being an OGL and such. We, Sargas, really bonded within a short period of time.

Of course, there were really many things I had done that made me regret. Even up till now, I still regret. Haix.. Looking back, I really shouldn't let her go 2 years ago.. I could only blame myself for not taking the opportunity.. and probably I wouldn't be what I am now? I don't know, probably.. If only I could turn back time, I wouldn't let the opportunity slip by. Even up till now, I really miss those times.. *Sigh*

2007-08-13T17:54:00.000+08:00

1 more post and it will be the 1st century of posts already..

This place is seriously dead.. Dead... Anyway, seems like no one would ever bother...

Oh my god! the exams are like 11 days away only! And I have not even started revising! I think I'm gonna screw the exams up to the max! The worst after 12 years of education.. Well, things aren't looking good anyway.. Failing here and there, and it seems to be common thing in my life.. Damn!

Some random stuff:

Backstreet Boys are gonna release their next album in October!! So excited to listen to their new pieces of music. Anyway, the 1st song on the song list is probably their latest single for the new album.. Enjoy listening.. lol..

*I miss those days...*

2007-08-04T12:37:00.000+08:00

Getting busier and busier by the day... and time does not seem to be enough. Sometimes, I would wish that I have 48 hours a day, but when it comes to the holidays, I would wish for only 12 hours a day.. Exams are just a short 20 days away, and I haven't even started my revision. >.< Oh man, I'm afraid that I would just screw the exams up..

Haiz... seems like I was the victim again.. After "receiving" a piece of "bad news" in the past few days, it really spoiled my mood, and felt emo again.. Why does it always happen to me? Perhaps it, too, happened to others. I tried, but it seemed hard to curb that kind of fury and unpleasantness inside me. Luckily, it subsided as the days passed, and I tried not to think about it anymore. Haiz... What's the point of thinking so much? As if it would change the fact..

20 more days, 20 more days, 20 more days, 20 more days, 20 more days

*Since things are impossible, let it go... Find things that are possible....*

2007-07-28T00:07:00.000+08:00

A busy week is finally over.. I'm done with those quizzes and most of the projects, except for CSAS3. I really felt relieved after finishing up with all those projects and assignments.. BUT, the quizzes were really a big letdown.

FPath was not really good actually, so I shouldn't place much hopes on it.. Trying to aim for an A for this subject is not as easy as it seems.. Haiz... dunno what the outcome will be. Next, I screwed up the AIMM and MGEN quizzes, especially MGEN. For AIMM, I got mixed up with the facts, and at least 6 marks are gone. For MGEN, it's worse! Completely screwed up the 20 marks question as I got no idea on how to do it.. The other 2 questions were slightly better, but this would only get me a marginal pass at the very most.. But most likely it would end up as failing.. I guess I completely screw MGEN up.. Crap! The only consolation would be the Biochem lab quiz. It was relatively ok.. Hope I would be able to do well in it..

Exams are about 4 weeks later, and I'm not prepared for it. There are many doubts all over my head and I think I'm struggling with studies now.. Haiz.. Dun really understand most of subjects like MGEN, AAP and FPath.. Haiz... SOS!

Feeling kinda emo these few days.. or am I feeling emo most of the times? Haha.. I don't really know too.. After all these time, I'm still unable to find my motivation back.. It had been lost since sec 4?? Where is it?

2007-07-22T23:29:00.000+08:00

Haiz... I have 4 quizzes in total for this upcoming week..
1) FPath (Tomorrow)
2) Applied Immunology (Wed)
3) MGen (Fri)
4) Biochem lab quiz (Fri)

Haiz.... Stress stress stress!! I didn't really study much yet... And I'm still here using the com and watching HK drama serial now... LOL! On top of that, deadline for projects and assignments are also due this week.. @_@

All I can say now is just best of luck la... =(

2007-07-18T00:03:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since this place was last updated... And this place seems to be as dead as ever...

We had our AAP practical last Thursday, and it was our class' turn to dissect a cat.. It didn't turn out as bad as I thought... and it wasn't as smelly as the dissected dog the other class had.. We didn't really have any hands-on as the cat was small in size.. So everything was done by Mr. Jomer. Haha..

I had LTC last weekend at Pulau Ubin. I guess the camp's alright and fun.. and there were a few familiar faces in the camp too.. haha.. Our group was really a fun bunch of people.. We could have fun at 1 time, and we could be serious when we needed to be serious. We had a night walk, which was trekking around Ubin, and the place was total darkness, as usual. We had to carry our stuffs everywhere we go, including logistics. And Anil, Charmane and I named ourselves the Bucket Musketeers (BM), as we were the ones in charge of carrying the buckets with all the bottles of water.. Haha.. so funny... We trekked all the way to Chek Jawa, and the view was splendid.. but we couldn't enter the seaside, as the place was supposed to be closed at night. Upon reaching, we chiong-ed our proposal as the deadline was approaching.. And we most of us didn't sleep much.. I managed to take about 1+ hours of nap... after which, we continued with the proposal.. We had to change our proposal many times as we were always given changes to the information.. We chionged all the way after breakfast and managed to complete it... It was really a sign of relieve to finish it..

This time round's LTC was really a short one.. It would be ideal to have a 3D2N one, coz 2D1N was just too short.. Muscles are still aching a little.. but most of the lactic acid were already sent to the liver for gluconeogenesis.. Hahaha... the Cori Cycle.. LOL.. Okok, enough of Biochem.. This is what happen when we have a Biochem quiz on the day after LTC.. I didn't really study much as the moment I stepped home, I slept till the night after my shower..

Haiz... The stress level now is piling greatly.. With so many projects to do, and the deadlines are drawing near.. Next week will be the super dead one.. coz we will have quizzes everyday... Haiz... wish me luck....

2007-07-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

Hmm.... It has been quite some time since I last updated.. And this place is practically dead... Maybe I should consider closing this blog down.... =X

Anyway, there were many unhappy things that happened for the past week or so.. First, it was all the term test results. All were below expectations, with only Cs... What the hell?! I don't even remember getting any B for my papers. Really screwed up big time. How am I going to improve my GPA at this rate? With just scraping through most papers.. And 1 subject is already enough to pull everything down, let alone a few more.. I guess it's Mission Impossible for my target of 3.5..

Sigh....

*Emo, Frustrated, Dejected, Stressed, Remorseful*

2007-06-21T12:00:00.000+08:00

It has been quite some time since I last updated... Haha..

Been thinking of many things.. Perhaps too many things.. About the past, the present and maybe the future..

Most thoughts in my head are about the past. Many things had happened in the past, be it happy or unhappy events.. There's simply plenty of them. Sigh... If only I could turn back time, I would like to relive those happy events again, and change the choices made in the past, without living in the regrets now.. If I could turn back time, I would not let her and the opportunity slip away a couple of years ago, study harder for the O's, remain in the A-level path, or opt for the PST option.. Of course, there are many more to mention..

Sometimes, I'm thinking whether if it would be better to lose my memory and have a new identity? In this way, perhaps it's better as I could just lose all those unhappy memories. Of course, the bad thing is that I'll lose those happy ones and friends around me... Sigh..

Life is always full of dilemma and choices, and we never know which choice is the right one until you choose it.. Upon making a choice, we'll know that the pasture is always greener on the other side. Why can't we live life as easy as it's supposed to be? Apparently, we can't...

Holidays are ending soon, with only 4 more days to go, and we'll be back to the hectic lifestyle once again. Well, I guess I prefer it that way, rather than staying at home with nothing to do, no one to go out with, facing the computer with nothing to do, facing the TV with no interesting programmes to watch.. I guess I just wasted this holiday, with no productive work... Sigh..

2007-06-13T00:48:00.000+08:00

Many thoughts keep flashing in my head, and my head know is now in a whirl. I'm kinda at loss of what to do, without any directions, practically nothing. Am I just thinking too much??

I do not want the "Emo" type of me anymore... Trying to get rid of this kind of "emo" state inside me... Trying to get back what I used to be a couple of years back, it should be 1 and 1/2 half years ago.. The happy-go-lucky me.. Where is it now? I really want to get back to what I used to be...

Too many things in my head.. but there's no one to confide to.. How? Just leave these thoughts in my head? Forget them? Or bury them with work? So lost.... LOST!

2007-06-08T19:25:00.000+08:00

YAY!!! Term test is finally over! Whoo~! After burning of much midnight oil for the past week, it's time that I can finally take a rest. I think I didn't put in my best efforts, coz I know that I'm gonna screw most of my papers up.. =( Mainly AAP and AIMM... Sianz... I think I'm already expecting that my AAP paper is a sure-fail.. Hahaha..

As for today's Biochem paper, I'm not putting much hope of doing well, coz I knew that I had already forgot a lot of things when I started doing the paper. Although Biochem is my most confident subject, this term test doesn't seem to prove it.. All I can say now is good luck to me... *Sigh*

Oh yes, the break that I'm looking forward to is finally here.. Although it's only 2 weeks, I guess it's already more than enough.. haha.. coz personally, I do not favour breaks.. Hope that I'm able to go out, provided that I'm able to find people..

Wishlist for this term break:
1) SENTOSA!
2) East Coast Park
3) Bowling sessions
4) Watch Pirates and Shrek 3
And more hang-outs...

*Can someone get me out of this?*

2007-06-01T18:54:00.000+08:00

Next Monday will mark the start of the 1st term test for AY07/08. And the first paper is FPath. Hmm... I guess it'll be quite ok. Then will be MGen (OMG!!), AIMM, CSAS and AAP (ARGG~! X2) and Biochem... Haiz... why must they put Biochem as the last paper? =(

I haven't really studied for the term test yet lor, and it's only left with 2 more days to study...? I think I'll just break down while mugging.. I simply have no mood to mug, reason being most of the subjects are so boring.. Studying will simply make me sleep... I just couldn't find the momentum and the motivation to mug, which I had last year. It was just lost like *poof*. Really don't know what to do... I just couldn't find my motivation that I used to have.. I'm feeling really very tired, be it physically or mentally. So tired of everything... Really..

What is really going on? I really don't have a slightest clue.. Things aren't going my way, and things tend to turn from bad to worse. Why? I just couldn't figure out.. Well, I don't know..

2007-05-26T00:49:00.000+08:00

This week was a very, very, very busy week... It was flooded by tests, tutorials and assignments.. Nearly went berserk too.... I hardly had enough of sleep every night, and the average was only 5 hours a night. And the next day I was like a walking corpse in school, dozing off during lessons.. All thanks to AAP test and CSAS...(mainly)

Today, I had biochem quiz and it was relatively ok.. =) I think, for this entire semester, the only subject I'm confident in would be only biochem.. Lol.. Haiz... next week there are another 3 more quizzes and the following week would be the term test already! Oh my god la! Haven't really started serious mugging yet lor!

Oh ya.. I wanna congratulate all the fellow peeps who are successfully in ASc main comm, JM in SC, and Evonne in TPSU. All the best ya..

Argg... really need my sleep badly.. Off to bed le..

Have been pondering on many things, whether big or small, and I keep wondering whether have I been making the right choices for all these time. I know that in the past I had made many wrong choices, which I regretted... This really frustrates me.. People say that things may turn out for the better, but.. there's already a 'may' in the sentence, which shows uncertainty. Sigh... how??

2007-05-20T12:41:00.000+08:00

Some pics from Ivan's belated birthday celebration:*Love Ivan =X LOL*

*L-O-V-E**Another L-O-V-E, but in the air...*

*Superman.... lol**A successful jump after several attempts..*

2007-05-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Things are getting from bad to worse now.. Work is piling up until the height of Bukit Timah Hill already, and I have not done anything yet. Argg!! Next week, there are AAP and Biochem quizzes, and I have not started yet. For AAP, I don't even know how to study as I don't even understand anything la... All the names and location of muscles and bones are driving me mad! I don't understand why I chose this path in the 1st place..

Next, there are lots of tutorials and lab work to be done, FPath, CSAS.... All not done yet! Damn it la! So much things to do yet there is so little time! Plus my revisions to do for quizzes... and the term test is just like 2 weeks later...!!!

Oh ya, I got back my MGen tutorial quiz back.. and guess what? I'd got 8/25.. LOL~! If I'm not wrong, I'm the 1st runner-up from the bottom. Lol.. And Xin Er owed me a drink... hehe..

Today, I went to celebrate Ivan's belated birthday at ECP with Lee Phin, Nicole. KC, Xin Er, Peng Ghee and Wilson... Dao-Bao-ed dinner from the hawker centre at Marine Parade before going to ECP, and we simply had some fun over there... lol... Left there around 10pm and reached home around 11.15pm...

I'm really feeling very tired... Really dunno how long I am able to hang on.. I dunno, really got no idea... Feeling very frustrated these days too.. and things don't seem to falling right into place... Everything is just falling everywhere, with nothing in place.. Haiz~ *Trying to find a solution*

2007-05-12T00:07:00.000+08:00

What a bad week I had... Argg!! Damn frustrated with it!

First of all, on Monday, I had AIMM tutorial quiz, and I screwed it up big time.. I'm so expecting to get a single digit score this time round... crap!

Then the main thing would be today. I had 3 tutorial quizzes.. Molecular genetics, biochem, and FPath.. Molecular genetics was a MAJOR SCREWUP! When I started to do the paper, my mind was blank... I simply forgot what I was supposed to do... Stoned at the questions for quite sometime along the way... In the end, I didnt manage to do the last question.. In conclusion, this would be another single digit score.. Crap! Erm... biochem and FPath were quite ok.. nothing much really happened..

Haiz... I'm really struggling with my studies now. Really at loss of what to do everyday. Tests keep flowing in each week and when I thought I was prepared for them, I wasn't at all. Zhen de hen FAN!!!!

Argg... many thoughts had been running through my mind everyday.. especially bad memories or whatsoever.. When coming to think of them, I simply felt bad, with an undescribable feeling inside me.. That's the main reason why I was moody at times. Whenever I tried to pen down my thoughts, they would always be drained off. Hence, ended up with a loss of words..

I guess I could only live in my past memories. Whenever I wanna get out, it seems so hard to do. From the current observation, things tend to get from bad to worse. Although I tried to be optimistic, there will always be something holding me back.. I'm really very tired.. I guess the old me was already gone.. perhaps 2 years ago?? I dunno... haha...

2007-05-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Life has been mundane for me these few days.. Correction, life has always been mundane, except for certain exceptions. Haiz... so bored.. Yesterday, it was supposed to have a Black Pearl outing, but due to poor response, the plan was cancelled... So, ended up rotting at home again..

Today, had FPath E-induction thingy. The session was freaking funny as most groups had one common topic in their conversations.. haha.. Crapped alot during the conversations, and I realised that I was the only person in my group that Dr Khin shot me with questions... Watched a movie in the library titled "One More Chance" after FPath, as there was nothing to do.. Rotted in school after movie till evening before going for dinner...

Haiz... so bored... Couldn't think of what to blog about too.. Most of my thoughts had been "erased" and if I can get them back, then I'll write it bah...

*Too many regrets in life...*

2007-04-29T14:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, a group of 7 of us, which comprised of Leslie, Estee, Liwei, Michael, Siying, Hwee Li and I, queued for approximately 4.5 hours to buy donuts from Donut Factory at Raffles City. Wah.. it was damn "shiong" lor... Imagine standing there for 4.5 hrs in a never-ending queue. Michael and Leslie went there at 12+, while the rest went there only at 1+. Luckily, with Michael there, queuing wasn't that boring, coz he was simply so comical there la.. haha. We finished our business only at 5pm! And we bought a total of 80 donuts! I bought only 6, coz I did not have enough money at that moment.. =X Hahaa..

After all the queuing, we went to Marina South for steamboat. Again, Michael was the comical one there. I realized that we didn't eat that much as previously.. Perhaps we juz dun have the appetite bah. Finished eating around 9.30pm and actually we intended to go to the Esplanade there to "chill out".. but in the end we didn't go coz it was quite late already. Haiz.. headed home with Liwei and reached home at around 11pm. When I told my parents about the donuts, their 1st reaction was "Wah.. You siao arh! Queue for 4.5 hours just to buy donuts!" Lol. And the donuts were gone after half-hour later.. Lol..

Some pics I grabbed from Liwei's blog:

*The donut-buyers*

*Our donuts*

2007-04-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

Today, didn't go to school as there was no lesson. So, ended up rotting at home as no one wanted to go out. =( To add to the problem, there was a shutdown in the electricity supply for the whole day.... So, no TV to watch, no computer to use... So bored lor!! The electricity supply came back only at around 5pm..

Haiz... I simply can't get enough of Week 0, and I miss it alot, especially Black Pearl! I guess many people are still high about orientation in school, although it's already gonna be Week 2.. This orientation had really impacted me alot, as I had gained alot during those few weeks. It was really enriching. I miss all the times we shared, from OLTC to preparations to Week 0 itself. Seeing the pictures of what we had went through for the past months really made me felt kinda sad, as I couldn't believe for myself that how fast time had really past. It was simply too fast.. I just wanna get involved in the next year's orientation again, coz it's simply FUN!

Gotta go already, coz tomorrow there is an 8am lecture, which is Molecular Genetics... haiz...

Here are some pics from Wk 0 and before:

2007-04-24T21:09:00.000+08:00

Ok, school has started for 2 days already, but I'm still in holiday-cum-orientation mood. I guess the other OLs and ASc people are feeling the same way too. Lol... I remembered that we were still cheering yesterday when we were in school. Haha..

Back to lectures and stuffs, and I still couldn't adjust back to the studying mood. I had 3 straight hours of Animal Anatomy and Physiology this morning and many people were practically dying in there. I can't imagine what it would be like when we would have 5 straight hours of this subject when another 2 hours of tutorial comes in. Haiz... it will be damn "shiong" lor...

I was supposed to meet up with my freshies today, but I couldn't make it coz when they were having their break, I was still having my lessons. And when my lessons ended, they started another lesson liao.. So, I can only meet up with them tomorrow.. Ya...

Haiz... tomorrow's lecture starts at 8am, and we have CSAS after that... haiz...

*Why...???*

2007-04-22T16:11:00.000+08:00

Week 0 was over. It happened just too fast. 4 days of orientation just passed like that. I miss the times when we were together during OLTC, busy preparing for the orientation stuffs and of course, Week 0 itself. I was so glad that AS came in 1st for both the Telematch and Cheering Competition. Woot~! Felt so proud of all the fellow freshmen and Musical Stormers who had put in alot of effort to obtain these titles. Although AS wasn't the overall winner, we were already winners. I really didn't regret joining the orientation programme as an OL, but I know I would really regret if I didn't join.

This was a very meaningful experience for me as I was an OL for the 1st time. Although I was an OGL in MJC for the 2nd orientation last year, I didn't join in with the rest for the orientation as I was not posted there, thus I was unable to experience what was it like to be an OGL.

Hmm... School is starting soon, in fact, it's just tomorrow. It's a sad thing, coz our class AF13 would be seperated to different classes. Haiz... We can only see each other during lectures, and we all have different breaks too. So it's kinda hard to meet up also...

I was supposed to go back to school yesterday to clear up the LT, but couldn't join the rest as I was running a high fever. The temperature rose up to 39.2°C but felt better at night already. Now, on and off still having a mild fever. Hope it doesn't get worse...

2007-04-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

Week 0 is coming to an end soon. To be exact, it will be tomorrow. It seems so fast, about 4 days of orientation seems to pass so quickly. The class I'm taking charge is A7B7. On the 1st day, everyone seemed kinda quiet and didnt talk much too. I guess everyone felt it that way during our own orientation. On the 2nd day, which was yesterday, even though not everyone turned up, we all still had fun together. The cheerings, the games, the campfire and not forgetting Gold Rush. During Gold Rush, I was glad that almost everyone was enjoying themselves, although some people got freaked out by the worms presented to them.

After Gold Rush, it was time for every class to get together to play games. Although the class seemed quiet, everyone got involved with the games we played and they seemed to enjoy themselves, which was a good thing. Even though a few of them were feeling very tired after the night activities, they tried to be awake to join in the games. Eventually, everyone in Black Pearl went back to the LT to catch a short nap before breakfast. After breakfast, everyone went back home to grab their sleep. For me, when I went home, I only managed to grab 4 hours of sleep. Lol...

Although the orientation is coming to an end, I really hoped that everyone in A7B7 enjoyed themselves during these few days. I would like to apologise to everyone in A7B7 for being quiet at times.

Hmm... gotta go already. Need to catch more sleep as tomorrow's another long day ahead.

2007-04-13T00:25:00.000+08:00

So tired... Now everyone is slogging their guts out for Week 0, which is next week. We are all very very busy now, with all the LT deco stuff, identities, more briefings and more debriefings etc etc. I had been going back to school every single day, and coming home late for these 2 days or so...

Today, we had simulations for Week 0, and I admit, it was kinda tiring. Running around TP to allow everybody to be familiarized with the schedule was the main thing. I guess everyone was feeling shagged too. Week 0 is only 4-5 days away, and it gets closer and closer by the day.

So, we, the Black Pearl, will survive this together for 1 more week. Kampateh Black Pearl! =D

2007-04-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

Today, I met up with fellow Black Pearl members, about 9 of us, to look for and buy logistics needed for the LT deco. We planned to go to PS and Beach Road, but in the end went to PS only. Lol. We bought only one item, haha, and then went to Bugis. The guys went for pool while the gals went shopping...

We were supposed to have a steamboat dinner at Marina Bay/Bugis, but due to the lack of response and attendance, 5 of us went to PS there to settle dinner, which cost $10+ per "plate" per person... Kinda expensive leh, and not filling somemore... Sat there and crapped and stoned for quite some time before entering Zone-X... Then headed for home....

Haiz... feeling so hungry now, as I feel as though as I do not have anymore strength to carry on typing... Haha...

2007-04-05T14:22:00.000+08:00

I found this special video and it's really awesome! It's an acapella version of "Shape Of My Heart". This song is one of my personal favourites among the Backstreet Boys' songs. Enjoy!

2007-04-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

I just had those irritating braces on this afternoon, and it was no easy feat. Spent more than an hour at the clinic and I made use of the time to take a short nap while the dentist was putting the braces in my mouth. Haha!

After putting on, it was so uncomfortable, with speech extra hindered (so people please tolerate it if you can't hear me well), unable to eat anything else except porridge and aching on the gums at times. Sianz man... Have to live on porridge for the next week or so... Sad. Tried to bite on a bun moments ago, and well, the gums will ache upon biting and chewing. So, forget it. I shall starve until the next morning bah.. haha!

I guess I gotta go soon, coz tomorrow need to go back to school to continue the banner-making thing...

Thanks for your concern... =)

2007-04-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

I had just came back from OLTC a couple of hours ago, and to be frank, this camp was better and fun-er than LTC.. haha! My ship is Black Pearl, and it rocks! Haha... Realized Rubayn, Anil, Eric, Yu Xuan, Evonne and Liwei were also in the same ship as me..lol. And our ship had the smallest crew, and when many people left for their respective briefings and stuffs, the number shrinked to a small number of us.

On the first night, we had the night walk around the school, with some lights switched off in certain places. However, this wasn't as scary as the OCGH night walk during LTC. After everything was over, went to sleep at about 2.30am, but cant get to sleep as the TCC foyer was a cold storage, with the air-con blowing directly at my face all night, and the lights weren't switched off too, so in the end toss about for a long time before getting about an hour of nap.

Next morning, we had captain's ball first thing in the morning followed by breakfast. We had an unique style of having breakfast by feeding the person beside you. Haha... Probably due to the lack of sleep, hunger and exhaustion during captain's ball, I had a migraine shortly after breakfast and it stayed there for the next few hours, thats why I was kinda sian sian during the activities after breakfast. We had the TP mass dance during late afternoon and the amazing race at night. And the amazing race was kinda..... no link at times, the clues I mean, and we had to run from one end to the other... We finished up around 1am then after everything was over, I slept at around 4am and luckily, managed to squeeze out 4 hours of sleep.

On the last day, we were required to do plannings for the design of the LTs and flag. While we were doing on the forfeits for the blanket drop thingy, we cracked many lame jokes along the way.. haha and we procrastinated a little. After debrief, our most of our Black Pearl gang went for dinner at KFC... I guess we made alot of noise over there as we were talking about all the sick things and crapping over there. Haha.... laughed till stomach ached..

Haiz... time flies, and the camp was over.. Next big thing up will be Week 0, which is about 2 weeks later. The camp was fun BUT, the food was disappointing! I guess the best meal was dinner on day 1.. Can you imagine eating something that was not filling at all, having the same type of veggie for 3 consecutive meals, chicken that was as hard as stone and tasted like something else? Oh man, most of us had decided, we will opt for vegetarian diet for the upcoming Week 0... Haha!

Haiz... tomorrow is the day, where it's time to put on the sickening braces on... sianz man...

2007-03-28T23:39:00.000+08:00

Just returned from my grandma's place after having a mini celebration of her birthday. My uncle called us over as he had bought a cake. So, I tried to upload some pics... *My bro, me, cousin and grandma*

Another one...

*Uncle, mum, 2 aunts and grandma*

I just changed the song, as the previous song would only create a sad atmosphere here.. haha.. So, now the new song is 'Time' by Backstreet Boys. It's another meaningful song with meaningful lyrics haha, but not so sad anymore...

2007-03-27T00:40:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to blog these days, coz my life seemed to be kinda mundane lol. On saturday, I went to my aunt's place and we played mahjong till 3++am, and thats kinda of madness. Lol.. Eventually I felt kinda dead the next day, although I managed to squeeze up to 7 hours of sleep. I remembered the last time I played mahjong with my cousins were a couple of weeks back, where we played till 2am.. haha. Anyway, I'm still a noob in mahjong..

Oh ya, I had been listening to this song recently and it's kinda meaningful. So, this song of the day is 'I Cry' by Westlife.

You said goodbye
I fell apart
I fell from all we had
To I never knew
I needed you so bad

You need to let things go
I know, you told me so
I've been through hell
To break the spell

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling I once knew

[Chorus]
I cry silently
I cry inside of me
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again
I cry, cause you're not here with me
I cry, cause I'm lonely as can be
I cry hopelessly
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

If you could see me now
You would know just how
How hard I try
Not to wonder why
I wish I could believe in something new
Oh please somebody tell me it's not true (oh girl)
I'll never be over you

Why did I ever let you slip away
Can't stand another day without you
Without the feeling I once knew

[Repeat chorus]

If I could have you back tomorrow
If I could lose the pain and sorrow
I would do just anything
To make you see
You still love me

[Repeat chorus till end]

Taken from http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/westlife/icry.html

2007-03-24T00:21:00.000+08:00

I just did a lame quiz from a website. And this is what it showed. LOL!

Why do people run from aaron?

You like the Backstreet Boys

'Why do people run from you?' at QuizGalaxy.com

2007-03-23T00:21:00.000+08:00

Feeling kinda random now, so I'm just gonna blog something random...

As I think of the past, I really regretted what I had chosen today. Come to think of it, I had made many choices which I really regretted now. Now, when I looked back, I had always asked myself "Why did I.....?" or "Why didn't I.....?" People always say "Once you have made a choice, if it is wrong, you just have to bear the consequences yourself." I agree with this statement. I think by bearing these consequences, then you will learn a lesson. I guess the grass is always greener on the other side, and it's most probably true. Haiz... I guess it's pointless to look back into the past.

History always never fail to repeat itself. Needless to say, many things happened again. I guess it's just my destiny to face all these kinds of problems every now and then. In life, I know problems are inevitable, but..... dunno what to say also... Hope to find someone whom I can really talk to, but it doesn't seem so now.

I probably had to let things go....

2007-03-21T00:10:00.000+08:00

Just came back from siloso about an hour ago, and yes, I'd got my tan. Haha. We met up at about 10am at harbourfront and I was the third to reach. After which, we went to the hawker centre to have our "brunch", although I had already taken my breakfast at home. Then, the 8 of us went to vivo city to shop for snacks before entering sentosa.

So, we reached there about 12noon? I'm not so sure about the time too, lol. And along the way, we saw a maltese, and 2 promeranians, of which 1 of the promeranians was a puppy. And it was very cute. Haha... Played with them for a while before heading further down siloso to find a spot. We played basketball and volleyball until desmond and peng ghee arrived, then we played the frisbee and soccer. Lol.

We left siloso around 6+ and headed to vivo city to meet evonne and we had our dinner there. Then shopped around with the rest and when we were about to go home, me, nic, desmond and peng ghee decided to take 80 home together.. haha, and the distance was freaking long. This is the 1st time I took 80 from 1 interchange to the other, and I hope it will be the last time, haha! The travelling time took about 1hour 20mins. Wooh~ Kinda "shiong".

Argg, my toe has got a blister on it after playing basketball on the rough ground, and for some unknown reason, my back is also aching now...

Haiz... Feeling so tired now, so gotta go to sleep....

2007-03-19T22:19:00.000+08:00

Why do bad things always happen at the same time? Recently, quite a number of things had happened, and I can't really remember already... =X So, is it a good thing or a bad thing? I guess nothing good had really happened to me before, as all the bad things had already overshadowed those good things that might had happened.

I had been feeling kinda moody these few weeks, which I myself also dunno why. I had been trying not to think too much about things, but no matter how hard I tried, it didn't really help. Haiz.. I dunno how le la....

2007-03-14T21:10:00.000+08:00

*SIGH*

Juz checked my results for this semester this noon, and true enough, what a disappointment.

Overall results: -HPI: B
-Cell Bio: B
-Maths Stats 2: B
-BMic: B+ (-.-")
-CSAS 2: B
-Sociology: B
-Creative Writing: D+ (-.-"""""""")
Overall GPA: 3.28 (>.<)

ARGGG! What kind of dumb grades I had got! And my GPA was pulled down by CW(obviously)! Sianz... This entire semester isnt a good one for me. Argg..!!I guess I need to work extra hard le. Or else I can forget about getting into a uni with such lousy grades... I guess with this kind of GPA, i couldnt even enter NUS nor NTU.

2007-03-13T11:54:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I went for my dental appointment to have my teeth extracted. To be exact, 2 premolars were extracted. Haha... and I spent about 1-2 hours in the clinic. Soon after extraction, which was about 1/2hr later, I could feel the pain starting to set in... although the anaesthetic was supposed to last at least 2hrs. Next week, I have to go back to the clinic to extract another 2. I guess this is the price which I need to pay for making braces...

Haiz... so bored at home now. Either no one wants to go out, or no one wants to go to the places I want to go.. Feeling so deprived of fun and the sun.... I just want to get myself busy with outdoor activities, and not cooping myself indoors. Someone ask me out plz???

*Tell me why I cant be there where you are*

2007-03-12T14:02:00.000+08:00

Hmm... Changed my blogskin and music a few days ago, coz the old one was kinda boring already... and I felt that a change is necessary... haha...

Hmm... I guess I'm never feeling good for the past few months... and I do not really show my emotions to people. Perhaps, some people may be able to tell. Well, I dunno... I may appear to be happy in front of people, but it is a complete opposite thing inside of me. Well, I guess luck is never gonna be my side and things normally do not turn out well for me. Perhaps, bottling things up inside me could be the best way, as I do not want others to worry too.....

This song also reflects what I am feeling too.. hehe.. For those who know the lyrics would probably understand what I mean...

Gonna have my dental appointment soon... so see ya....

*I guess time is the best medicine....*

2007-03-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

Yea! Finally got my stupid computer fixed. After weeks of suffering from severe lags and hangs, it was sent from repair a few days ago and it's back now! Now, I can use the it with ease.. But the sad thing is that I have to upload and install all my games back again.. and it will take a long time lor... -.- But Im lucky that all my other documents are still intact, so are my pics and music...

Hmm... starting to get bored after coming back from the chalet. Haiz... wanna go out leh, but then got no one to go out with.. Can someone juz ask me out??????? Just wanna stop my mind from wandering...

*Sigh*

2007-03-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

Wah!! Feeling so tired now coz I had just came back from AF13's chalet today. Chalet was kinda fun as we spent most of the time playing mahjong! Haha! Not forgetting playing PS2 and DaiDee too... I guess most people spent most of the time in mahjong games haha..

Everyone didnt sleep on the 1st night, but most slept in the morning, but Nic and I didnt get any sleep at all, although I tried to. In the end, I only managed to get 5 precious hours of sleep on the second night.. lol.

Today, which is also the last day, the rest went home but I went to Downtown East with Adelyn, Nic and Liwei as they were going to ASc chalet over there. We played pool after lunch for a couple of hours before going on seperate ways.

When the new academic year starts next month, the class will be split, so we are trying to plan for more activites as gatherings before the new academic year starts. So, planning is still in progress.

Gotta go and get some sleep now... Bye.

~I know that I am just an insignificant figure..~

2007-03-02T23:52:00.000+08:00

WHEE~! Exams are over and the holidays are here at long last! This is the first time in my life that I'm hoping for a holiday, LOL, coz usually, I hate holidays. But not this time, coz I need a break badly. All I need now is time for recuperation from all the mental and physical torture that had taken place over the past 3-4 weeks. And not to forget, to play hard! Haha!

Went to sentosa today with AF13, and only 10 of us went. We wanted to go for a tan but, the weather spoilt everything.. as soon after we were there, it started to rain.. We crapped alot while staying in the shelter and we stayed there for quite some time.. haha.. Went for shower after that and headed to Vivo City coz most of them wanted to get Ben and Jerry's...

We headed home after that, since everyone had their own programmes. So sianz... Reached home also nothing to do.. haha! Watched abit of tv and played abit of games... Haiz...

Cant really play much now since the computer now is abit of "sot sot", in other words, going haywire. Haiz... facing real difficulty while trying to use the computer.. Try to get this fixed ASAP and I can play my games properly.. haha!

Hmm... gonna have a class chalet this Mon to Wed, and I hope things turn out well..

*I do care about you, but.... do you know?*

2007-02-26T15:08:00.000+08:00

Exams are here, and 2 papers were already down, and left with 2 more. I just have to tell myself to endure for the next 2 days and I'll be free again.. Persevere!!!!

Today's BMic was alright, but kinda forget some stuff... Hope I can do well.. Next up will be HPI and here I am, struggling with it right now, coz I had forgotten most of what was taught last term. Haiz... Hope I can rush everything in time.. Wish me luck man..

Time to get back to my revision le. Gotta go..

*Emptiness fills my heart*